I am the first to admit that I fall for someone way to easily, most likely before I know all the facts. However if the facts are presented to me from the beginning, I tend to make the best choice I possibly can. I analyze everything until I cant analyze them any more. I guess my point is I have made a huge mistake. Its not something that is life threatening or that I cant take back or change. People who play with other peoples feelings ought to have the same thing done to them. Its not nice nor is it fair. I now at 20 years old that life sometimes isnt nice, or fair btu when someone purposely uses you only to throw you out like yesterdays trash. It makes a person rethink everything around them. I wont be mentioning names at all in this blog however this person is like the scum that is found behind a stove that hasnt been cleaned for a long ass time. I am shaking and damn near in tears over this person. I really have no reason to. I just thought this person was going to be different. Going against my best judgement I fell. And let me tell you I fell hard. He broke my heart not once but twice. I should have learned the first time but I didnt. I was stupid and came back for round two. The second time around is my fault. I will own up to that. He just proves that there arent any good guys left in this world. I may only be 20 but its looking more and more like I am going to be single for the rest of my bloody life. After this last person shattered my heart, it will be a long time before I ever let someone in my life again. I am not going to trust anyone. Its better that I keep all my secrets and feelings to myself. It only ends up hurting me in the long run when I tell someone. At least with this online blog I dont have to answer to anyone. With out mentioning names no one knows who I am talking about. They can assume whatever the hell they want but I aint telling them shit. No one from here on out will ever know my business. If they ask me how my day is I will give just a one worded response and go on with my day. I will only call someone if its an emergency and only answer if someone persistently calls me. Its time I realize who my true friends are instead of dealing with these fake ass people with their fake ass friendliness. Fuck them all. I have made it this far in my life with little or no help whose to say that I cant make it the next 50 or so years. I am a single independent women and will make it even if its the last thing I do.
a very angry ndgirl07 signing off now
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