Betrayal

I havent had the worlds greatest weekend. Alot of it was spent sleeping and working however when ever I wasnt doing either of those I was thinking. About life, boys, money and my supposed friends that have chosen this point to back stab me. I know life isnt supposed to be easy and I am not asking that it would be. Life is supposed to be difficult at times because that is what makes us who we are. Forcing ourselves to get through the tough times is what makes us, us. There are those who choose to sit down and take the easy road and then there are those of us who try to stand although unsure if we are going to be able to. Then there are of course those who stand straight up and take on what the world plans on throwing at them. I guess I am someone in the middle. I try my damndest to stand straight up and fight the world but there are many days where its a struggle to even get to my feet. But I do try hard to make things work no matter the situation.

Some of my older sisters guy friends from high school I still talk to from time to time. The two that I talk to quite frequently are some of my best friends. They look out for me as if I was their little sister. They have both stated time and time again that if I ever needed anything that all I had to do was call. I havent really took them up on that offer just because I am nto someone who likes to ask for help. Anyways I ended up runnign into one of them at the bars on thursday when I was out and about. I was shocked none the less that I seen him but was excited too. We chit chatted for a few minutes and he said he would be back. For the rest of the time at the bar he sat with me and a couple of girls that I came with. We were having a grand ole time just hanging out. Sometime during the night, i think when I had gone to the bathroom, one of the girls i was with decided it was her time to swoop in and try to take this guy away. Granted i would never date him just because he is my sisters exboyfriend but still thats not the point. Per previous posts I have written she is the one that decided to f uck around witha guy I met at a bar right after my birthday. Anyways she ends up giving hiim her phone number and thats when we called it a night. I dont know if anything happened between the two and frankly I am prolly better off not knowing. Cuz if I find out something did happen between them I will severely beat her with my own bare hands.

Just because she is willing to spread like butter to any guy that is willing doesnt mean she needs to ruin the chance for me. At this rate I am never going to be able to find myself a decent man that is not after just sex. I seriously just want to pack up and get out for awhile because of all the shit that is going on here. Its not fair it really isnt.

I feel that I have so much mroe to say on here but my thoughts are all jumbled and shit so i cant get anything straight. Maybe its the lack of sleep, maybe is stress. I dont have an idea but for now I am going to sign off and maybe write more later.

ndgirl07 signing off.