You'll always be on my heart...just like a tattoo

The past few days have been filled with alot of emotion. Lots of crying as well. I dont know why I am so hung up on this person. But I am. I love him with all of my heart. Its hard for me to even realize the depths of the feelings I had for him. Its scarey to actually reach into my heart and find them. Parts of me doesnt want to do it but the other part of me knows that in order to truly move on I have to. It truly is heartbreaking knowing how much I felt for this guy and realizing that he doesnt feel the same. It does make a person wonder what they did wrong. Was it something i did, said, wore...The list could go on and on. For those that acutally read this, yoru prolly saying that its nothing of the above. Some people just arent meant to be together and its obvious that me and this guy arent. I just saw so much potential in him that I kept hanging on even when I kenw the end was near. I wanted to believe that he loved me and that he would tell me one day. But I am so sick of waiting. I cant put myself through that emotional stress. It breaks my heart everytime that I heard about hsi new girlfriend or how he was working things out with his ex. I cant do it. I really love him and probably will for the rest of my life. One day the feelings will dwindle, maybe even go away completely. But right now I cant stop thinking of him. I dream of him, I wish he would call me. But its not going to happen. The dreams I have are fantasys that I hope one day in real life will work out the way i dream of them. I really am scared and stressed. I am going to sign off before i start crying at work

ndgirl07 signing off