I dont have anything profound to say just need to get my feelings off my chest. Life right now is alright. Not anything spectacular however I am content. I am in the final days of my college career. I have only a few assignments and final tests to take and then I am done. I am happy, scared, worried, and stressed out. I know I have accomplished something in my life that is only going to help me out in the end but I dont know what to do next. People continuously ask me what I am going to be when I am done. I dont know an answer to that question. I know that I am no longer college student. I have referred myself as a college student for so long that I dont know what to say I am. A college graduate? Someone with a huge amount of debt? I dont know. I am me. Is that an ok response? I am Theresa Ann. A friend, daughter, sister and i think an over all good person. Some people may disagree but they dont know me. They dont know the type of person I am and quite frankly I dont care. I have the people around me that care and thats all that matters to me. Sure I would like more of a social life but ya know I dont need that. What I need right now is for people to back off a little bit and let me figure out life for myself. I know I am going to make mistakes but how am I supposed to learn if I dont try. I am going to fall sometimes but I am going to brush off the dirt and continue on knowing I learned a lesson. Give me suggestions or advice but please dont tell me what to do. I am an adult and will decide what choice I am going to make.
The thing that I am yearning for most is someone special to come into my life. I am ready for a relationship and ready to begin settling down. I dont want to be married tomorrow I just want to be with that special someone for awhile before the ultimate commitment is made. Marriage is forever in my eyes and I am not going to just settle for anyone. I am sick of the guys who think that dating is just a game. They dont realize that its not and the only thrill they get out of it is getting into someones pants. I just want guys to open their eyes to what is sitting before them. I may not have the money, and fancy things but I am a good person.
It seems like all the truly good guys are taken. It sucks because I see all my friends and even my sisters finding their special someones yet I am sitting on the sidelines waiting for something. ANything. I just want to feel loved.
well thats all for now. I have no idea if anyone is even going to read this but this is my safe place to say what I really feel. I plan to use this to show others out there the life after college and the struggle to find true happiness.
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