Love is in the air

For everyone else it seems. My cousin Darin got engaged last week sometime. And I found out that Friday night my older sister Stacie got engaged. I am super stoked for them because its great they found someone they want to spend the rest of their life with. However I cant help but be jealous. I love my sister to death but now she isnt going to have much time for little old me. I dont even have a damn boyfriend. She is going to be starting a life with Nick and I am goign to be left on the sidelines. It seems to be my lifes motto. I always am on the sidelines for everything.

This weekend hasnt held any spactacular plans. Just slept alot and went home for a few hours. I was supposed to go visit a friend but I have like no money. And even on payday I wont have much left. After rent is paid and some other misc bills I will ahve barely enough for gas. I wish I could find another job that paid me well. Even if i seriously pinch pennies I barely have enough money. Hell for groceries i bought noodles and parmasean cheese cuz i dont have money :(

I start my new job today. I am excited and nervous at once. I wont know anyone except for one person, if he even works tonight. I havent seen him inmonths so he prolly wont even know who i am. Oh well. It will be extra money.

Thats all for now. Im exhausted and am going to take a nap

ndgirl07 signing off